I wonder if I’ve been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I’m not the same, the next question is ‘Who in the world am I?’
-Excerpt from Lewis Caroll’s Alice in Wonderland
My boyfriend recently asked me how I can be two completely different people online and off. I was a bit startled by this question at first. Was it an attack? Was he saying I’m insincere? I thought about it for a second and realized he was right—sort of.
We all have different facets to our personality and most of us choose to show each one of these sides to people at carefully selected times. With him, I’m usually giggly and playful. Sometimes I think about what I’m going to say, but most of the time I don’t. He’s a safe place for me to be silly and fun, and so I am.
This blog, my writing, is a different story. It’s a platform for my most personal thoughts. Here, I ask questions and search for answers. It’s a safe place for me to be introspective, to breath, and to dream.
But it’s not that all the pieces of me are not the real me, and it’s not that they never collide. As human beings, we long for safety. We want to be protected. So we show what we show to the world when we feel comfortable doing so.
And then, one day the curtain is drawn, and the people in our lives realize there’s so much more to us then they knew.
